Don’t judge me to hurt me, or hate me,

but judge me to love me, to know me,

to bring the best me forward.

Don’t judge me to hurt me, or hate me,
but judge me to love me, to know me,
to bring the best me forward.
Don’t judge me to hurt me, or hate me,

but judge me to love me, to know me,

to bring  the best me forward.

 

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 Wellness

Yeah to April it’s here and soon we will celebrate Earth Day so I am looking forward to that. Also in this month I am going to dedicate some words I used everyday, that really don’t make sense like OMG and OG or Jesus this and that. Every little thing that goes wrong these words come flying out, like if I am walking and I stamp my foot or I saw something in a store, these are the first words that comes to mind and I find it very dramatic. So I have to try and stop saying them.

I did a DMV practice test on-line and I went on Tuesday and took the test and pass. So I should start learning to drive soon I think, in my mind I see myself parking but not driving I am a very good parker in my mind. My hd double park one day and I was alone a spot came vacant and I couldn’t move the car. So embarrassing, I will learn just to get myself out of situation like that. Have a great weekend and remember God is good all the time. 

Love Thy Neighbor 

Sometimes I feel like just leaving everything and going somewhere quite, and starting all over again. But I know that can never happen, or maybe it can I don’t know but what I do know is,  I can only start to live in the moment each day so that’s what I am trying to do but it’s hard. And I say that because I find there are not much people you can talk to about our lord and really have a good conversation about him. This world is full of temptation and it’s our cross we have to walk everyday but, we do need some help. Each day we face a lot, and when you go home and close that door what is it you are thinking about? Do you play your day in your head or you think about what you should have done different?  When you meet someone for the first what is it you talk about? Is it about the lord Jesus cause that will be crazy. Try this the next time you meet someone or trying to befriend a person or just in general, make your first topic about God, or at the end of your conversation say God bless, look at it like you trying to find a connection with this person through God. Every one of us will say I am my own person and I think for myself, but when you look at it we are all followers of something , what are you a following?  The person next to you, busy trying to look like the next person or god?  As I say we need one another. Ask yourself what can I do to  help my neighbor? Getting them something to eat? Take care of the poor? Taking the time to really listen to someone? And when you do, will you take it to the  grave or will you tell the first person you meet ? When I was younger I had a friend in my class, and I ask my mother if I can give her something, and she said if you are going to do this you can’t let your four fingers know what your thumb is doing, and I say ok because I understand what she were saying. So what are you willing to do each day in living your best life on this earth ? Every morning look in the mirror and ask as a child of God what can I do for my neighbor today. God is good all the time.

     

Confession    

 I am coming to the end of lent in preparation of the celebration of Easter. It’s a time for baptism, joy, life and rebirth. After all the praying and fasting there is one more thing left for me to do, in order to go forward with a clean soul and enjoy every moment in this joyful celebration. I am going to be making my first confession ever, I always do the whole 40 days of lent but never shed myself of my sins. I remember my mom always used to tell us going to school, we don’t have to confess to anyone but God, so when we had confession time I wouldn’t go, but coming back into church and getting to understand more I know now I have to do this. I saw a video of (Archbishop Fulton Sheen) and he was talking about confession and why we should go and he said, when we suppress our guilts it is there for eternity unless it is forgiven, when it is forgiven it’s completely bolted out, well how do we now through the mercy of god and the fullness of faith in christ how are our sins forgiven?  by confession, what is confession? nudity of the souls stripping ourselves of all false excuses and charm pretenses and revealing ourselves as we really are.  I take this as a recycling of our life and a rebirth of a new life, God is good all the time. Have a great Easter.  
 

Stress Free Nights

Sometimes before bed I get anxious and I can’t sleep, so I try having stress free nights by doing some one minute breathing and also writing some positive notes to myself and sticking them on the fridge, the bathroom mirror and on the front door. Or preparing my clothes for the next day its the little things I do before bed, and it gives me something to look forward to the next day. But I must say mediating and boiling some spices on low heat before bed helps. With a mixed of lemon cranberry nutmeg cinnamon stick ground cinnamon cloves  bay leaves ginger and water. It’s very  festive and  really give off a nice fragrant. So these are some of the ways I stay stress free at nights , God is good. 

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Connect As One

 Toothless, hair out of place you look different, all of that shouldn’t  matter because that’s not who we are. In this world we chase after lies and love what is worthless, judge each other on appearance and how we live, we never give our neighbor a chance if they don’t look or act like us we turn them away . Before it was hard for me to except someone that was different or I didn’t understand I didn’t want to be around them and I choose not to be bother. 

There are a lot of thoughts I deal with every day, people always say they “have to stay on top of my game” literally , I do because every day is different I could get up this morning and be so happy , my day is bright ahead of me even if you say the worse thing to me, I will smile and say no worries or it could be the opposite, sad and I have no idea what it’s all about. Like a year ago every time I am alone home or close my eyes I will see this man waiting for me I don’t know how I know that he is waiting I just know, at first I was scared, I talk to my friend about it and she didn’t know what to make of it and also I find he was very faint at first but the more I talk about him he would get more apparent , he also would stay in the in between holding his hands drop in front of him and staring at me in the distant.

So one day I was watching tv and I heard Joel Osteen say “what you are thinking do not bring it to light” that’s when I realize it was all in my mind I had to get but into church and I did. I know I have to keep my thoughts fixed on God,  I am confident that everything is going to be ok even if I am sad or thinking to hard about anything I will say to myself it’s going to be ok. And that’s what I live by each and every day. I find now as I’m moving towards God I had to change a lot of things , as you know being of this world the flesh is weak and as much as we try to do right and live by his commandment sometimes  it’s seen so hard and I wonder, how can I give so much power to a diet?  or even going without eating anything sweet for a whole year and can’t commit to  one commandment. So I pray a lot for this and I find comfort in it. I see clearly now,  like I am not mad if any disappointments  come my way I’m very grateful for them and my blessing . I try very hard to be understanding to every one feelings, doing this full me and I am happy in that moment. I dream one day that I was waiting for the train in the station it was an outside over head station and the train was coming towards me but, soon as it gets near it started to crumble the wind was so strong  everything was just crumbling or turning to dust, so I decided to run down the stairs but I couldn’t get out. I try so hard holding on to the walls but the walls started to crumble too and I felt the wind on my skin I got so scared first I was along and I didn’t know what was happening , all of a sudden I was floating in the air and I felt a peacefulness , it was like a very warm peaceful feeling  that take over my body  and right there I wasn’t scare any more all I feel was that peace I didn’t know anything else but that I didn’t remember anything about being scared.  Even when I awake I still feel a little bit of it. So I took that as a sign as no worries everything is going to be ok no matter how things turn out good or better it’s still ok.

To be able to have a conversation with my last son about God and for him to ask me questions about him is my icing on the cake, I see he is finding his way and I know he will be bless. Every time we are together that’s mostly what we talk about I feel so much power we connect on a lot of levels and in the moment everything look bright and I can see a little further. I am getting to understand the way of our father a little more now I know I have a long way but, I’m on my way. When ever we are ready we can follow him it’s all up to us  he don’t  force us , but when the time comes he is there with open arms. His world is one big connection and we all fit in it as one, if only we can find that connection in each other. But until we truly know who we are and our purpose in life then we will love one another as ourself God is great.

Alone Time

Tonight it’s me my PJ Chocolate Truffles and the Hallmark Channel countdown, I’m in a different world. These flowers I had like 3 weeks now and they all die out, but I keep wetting them with cold water and I just love the look vintage.The red rose I had in the freezer for five years now it belong to my sister-in-law, we were all given a red rose at her funeral and I always wanted to do something for her with the rose. I decided to place it with the vintage flowers and it fit perfect. Hopefully it would last a next five years and I would get to enjoy it at every holiday. God is good.

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