Staying Focus

Today I am on my 4th day of lent and I am doing great, being  there’s  so little I can eat at this time. But one thing that help, is me preparing my meals at the end of the week so far it’s been easy. I am also doing  the  30 Min. Full Body HIIT Workout | Day 01 – 30 Day Full Body Burnout and I’m trying to stay focus with it because it’s getting a bit hard.

IMG_1907Last night I made  a little snack after dinner and it was good. 1 green or red apple peel and slice and 1 teaspoon of honey, hope you all have nice weekend God is good.                                                                                                                             

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Ash Wednesday

IMG_2309Today is Ash Wednesday and as we hurry to church for the father to place ashes on our forehead he mumble these words “dust thou art and unto dust you shalt return” but we don’t pay much attention to the words because we are only there for the ashes and to get our penance going. But if we were to stop and focus on the words then we would have to think about death and that isn’t something we like to worry ourselves about, but death is only a reminder of not to sin. So as we go into these forty days of penance remember there are three basic practices of lent.

Pray: Raising our hearts and mind to God.

Fasting: Abstain from things like food, drinks, habit or behavior.

Almsgiving: Try to focus on ways we can help someone in greater need perhaps don’t buy little things we think we need for the forty days, and give that money to someone in need or the church.

Lent is a season of rebirth so whatever you do or give up this season make sure it’s something that we discipline ourselves so that we may grow and become more like Christ in our attitude towards God and one another. God is good. 

Home Sweet Home

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Yesterday  hd and I were talking and we decided it was time to build our house in the Islands near the beach. This  would be our first big project together and I am super excited and thrilled and hope he we would agree on everything.  We look on Houzz web site and saw lots of beautiful homes and fell in love with two of them.  We want to build a little guest cottage first,  before we get started on our family home, in this way we will have extra money coming in and also we could be hands on for the next project. This little cottage is one of  many homes we saw, it reminds me of the houses I grew up around.  Nothing to big but livable, inviting and able to clean in a second.  At the end of the year I will be heading down to get things started. 

Leaving Barbados thirty years ago and coming here I never thought I would ever miss home because everything here are so exciting and I love it.  But I think its time for me to relax and I want to do it the Island way, I miss the beaches the breeze and mostly having a garden. Whenever I go home I stay with my mom and it is really great seeing and being with my family for that short time we have together, however I don’t like moving that much or talking and all this running around or even going over to they house I just like to stay put, you would think people in the island would be lay back.  I don’t know where they are going because the place is not big but I do get they mean well and I love them for that. By the time I get back to New York I’m more tired then before. So having a place of my own will make me a little more settled and give me a little more time to hide out and have a cocktail before letting anyone know I am in the land. God is good.

 

 

 

 

 

Needs and Wants Calendar 2016

IMG_2893Today is the first day of the new year, and I intent in making some unforgettable memories and fulling my days with laughter. As I say I’m making my month to month sacrifices on the calendar with my needs first and my wants at the very end. So here is my list of sacrifices. 

1. Limit my spending. I wanted to start out the month a little vintage, so I focus on money which I will limit myself 10 dollars a week until the end of the year.

2. Leave my cell home for a day. Not taking my cell will help me to be on time.

3. Stay offline for a day. Staying offline will give back a little more time to me.

4. Have dinner once a week with my kids. Dinner with the kids will bring our love and respect for each other more stronger.

5. Cook dinner with my hd one night a week. Cooking dinner with my hd is showing my appreciation and love for him.

6. Take a moment for myself each night before bed. Don’t be afraid to take a moment every day for yourself it will help you to be focus and calm you down.

7. Do one challenging task this month. Try going out of the way for the next person making that person feel special, it will be a little challenging but it will all worth it.

8. Check my end of month spending and save any remainder. At the end of each month I will be checking my spending and saving the rest.

New Year Sacrifices…

As I enter into the end of the year 2015 I am very calm, and even though it’s half way through the month I have no stress and I own it all to the word (NO) to myself. This month brings the hustle and bustle or what the media wants us to believe we should be buying, or standing on line for and if we don’t get the new “Must Have” them we are doomed.  I have no great expectations of my family and I but to be relax and enjoy this magical day Christmas. Isn’t that what it all about just being the best you?

Looking back now on all my resolutions through out were not fulfill , the goals I set for each year I haven’t accomplished any for myself.  As the new year begin I get so busy just by making all the bills and hoping  that first few months passes by quickly,  and sadly all my hope for the new year slowly pass me by with no attention given. The thing I realized back then my goals weren’t that challenging they were just simple thing I can do in my daily life,  because most of them was about what I wanted.  But I did get to make some changes like starting this blog , finding a church to call my home and lending my time to the Bots store.  All these were not on my to do list at the beginning of the year but they all bring me joy and I am happy. 

And yet another year is about to begin and I am getting so excited in making  my goals once again.  But this time i’m going to be setting  goals for my needs which is  by  far  most  important.    As the month goes I will have a month to month calendar of my sacrifices which will  accommodate me.  It will be a little challenging because I have to stop putting my wants first and we all know how hard that could be.  But still I have a lots of things to fix that I  ignore for a very long time,  like being on time with everything.   I know it will help me to grow and enjoy a little bit more of myself.  This time of year could be very stressful trying to get everything you think you need together ,  but remember christmas is all about the joy and smiles we bring to one another, being with your love ones along with spreading love to everyone that pass your way MERRY CHRISTMAS.   God is good … IMG_2877

 

 

 

Anniversary

 

My husband and I meet fifteen years ago at a park where we took our kids for exercise. I didn’t know at the time we were there for the same reason you see my son was getting a little to heavy and being school was out for the summer I took him there. And he was there for his daughter. We would meet every morning at the park, come to find out we had a little in common I have three kids one girl and two boys, he has one girl. They all born October, two years apart my son the 7th and she is the 8th  which I find was pretty cool, but it didn’t stop their he is July and I am also we are a day apart from each other at first I was like NO!! let me see some document some proof you know because what are the odds you meeting someone like that, but it’s true yeah.I guess God know what he was doing .So today is our anniversary  and I can’t believe it’s been fifteen years already. We went for breakfast this morring and it was nice . Can’t do much because he work till late, but I am going to meet him later with my thermos and have some hot chocolate with cream and do some flash backs on our past God is good.

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Connect As One

 Toothless, hair out of place you look different, all of that shouldn’t  matter because that’s not who we are. In this world we chase after lies and love what is worthless, judge each other on appearance and how we live, we never give our neighbor a chance if they don’t look or act like us we turn them away . Before it was hard for me to except someone that was different or I didn’t understand I didn’t want to be around them and I choose not to be bother. 

There are a lot of thoughts I deal with every day, people always say they “have to stay on top of my game” literally , I do because every day is different I could get up this morning and be so happy , my day is bright ahead of me even if you say the worse thing to me, I will smile and say no worries or it could be the opposite, sad and I have no idea what it’s all about. Like a year ago every time I am alone home or close my eyes I will see this man waiting for me I don’t know how I know that he is waiting I just know, at first I was scared, I talk to my friend about it and she didn’t know what to make of it and also I find he was very faint at first but the more I talk about him he would get more apparent , he also would stay in the in between holding his hands drop in front of him and staring at me in the distant.

So one day I was watching tv and I heard Joel Osteen say “what you are thinking do not bring it to light” that’s when I realize it was all in my mind I had to get but into church and I did. I know I have to keep my thoughts fixed on God,  I am confident that everything is going to be ok even if I am sad or thinking to hard about anything I will say to myself it’s going to be ok. And that’s what I live by each and every day. I find now as I’m moving towards God I had to change a lot of things , as you know being of this world the flesh is weak and as much as we try to do right and live by his commandment sometimes  it’s seen so hard and I wonder, how can I give so much power to a diet?  or even going without eating anything sweet for a whole year and can’t commit to  one commandment. So I pray a lot for this and I find comfort in it. I see clearly now,  like I am not mad if any disappointments  come my way I’m very grateful for them and my blessing . I try very hard to be understanding to every one feelings, doing this full me and I am happy in that moment. I dream one day that I was waiting for the train in the station it was an outside over head station and the train was coming towards me but, soon as it gets near it started to crumble the wind was so strong  everything was just crumbling or turning to dust, so I decided to run down the stairs but I couldn’t get out. I try so hard holding on to the walls but the walls started to crumble too and I felt the wind on my skin I got so scared first I was along and I didn’t know what was happening , all of a sudden I was floating in the air and I felt a peacefulness , it was like a very warm peaceful feeling  that take over my body  and right there I wasn’t scare any more all I feel was that peace I didn’t know anything else but that I didn’t remember anything about being scared.  Even when I awake I still feel a little bit of it. So I took that as a sign as no worries everything is going to be ok no matter how things turn out good or better it’s still ok.

To be able to have a conversation with my last son about God and for him to ask me questions about him is my icing on the cake, I see he is finding his way and I know he will be bless. Every time we are together that’s mostly what we talk about I feel so much power we connect on a lot of levels and in the moment everything look bright and I can see a little further. I am getting to understand the way of our father a little more now I know I have a long way but, I’m on my way. When ever we are ready we can follow him it’s all up to us  he don’t  force us , but when the time comes he is there with open arms. His world is one big connection and we all fit in it as one, if only we can find that connection in each other. But until we truly know who we are and our purpose in life then we will love one another as ourself God is great.